2010

Today is 27/2/10~7 months 1 week 1 day already i break with daniel~
5 months 2 days already i'm in relationship with ah fan~
at first, i accepted ah fan because i hope he can help me to forget daniel~
but i didn't tell ah fan about this~
ya~i did it~i really can forget daniel~but something still stuck inside my heart~
although I already forget our passed time, but I really hope we still can be friend~
from the 1st day we break until today, we din even talk to each other~
i think that...i should hate him because he always do something to hurt me~
but don't know why i din~even i still don't know what is the reason we will break~
Sometime...i really hate myself~
ah fan really treat me very good~he is my 1st bf that treat me as good as so~
but sometime he do something that make me ignore him~
Yesterday...during the bowling competition i really feel very happy~
long time i din do so~go to interact with leos~
but he seems like very boring and moody~
i don't know he want like this~
at first, i have told him~ during leo event we don't always stand by side~including hold each other hand~
but yesterday he always do so~make me feel ignore~
This morning...i told wince that sometime something i really won't share with ah fan~
but i will share with law or boo~i don't know why~
i don't know why~this morning at kopitiam he always say something that make me feel ignore~
Just now...ah fan told me that he think that i still miss daniel~
i felt confuse~why will like that~
haiz~i don't know what am i writing~
someone can tell me what's going on?