19/7/09, Sunday, I break with him. That time I was sitting alone in a bus going to tuition. I cried in the bus. This is the first time I cry in a bus. In the beginning, I think break will be the best solution for us. But I realize I can't live without him. I don't hope our relationship just gone like this. But he had made the decision. He don't even give me a chance. I'm very sad. Although almost 1 month already, but everyday I still very miss him. Every moment I will think of him. I try to stop think of him. I try to concentrate in my study. But wherever I go, the books that I read, the lesson that I was listening, everything also got his name. When I saw his name, I think of him again. Everyday I feel want to find him. But I know he won't reply me. I think he already have new target. He said he always take me as best friend. But I don't think so. The feel that he gave me just like I'm his enemy. I ask myself to stop think of him. I try to find many things to do. I want to forget him!!But I can't do it. I feel sorry to my friends. I always let them worry about me. Now he always do and say something like playing me. He want to say something that means Ah Fan like me. But, I sure Ah Fan is still like Vivian. And we're best friend. Won't happen anything.