Today's mood quite down. I watch back my IR day's video cd. After the fashion show, called some of representative of respective clubs to walk too. I walked with him. That is the last time we walk together. Then everything change already. I open back the pass recording and listen. I heard many gossip about us. Many are point on me. That I really feel very suffer. But I didn't give up our relationship. I think of it. I think the reason he want to go away is because of his club. He want to concentrate on his club. Or maybe he got a new target. I don't know. Already 1 month he left. I still will think of him. No 1 can replace him in my heart. I hope I really can pick him and throw out from my heart. Recently, infront of everyone I just like very happy. But I'm not. I just act. Because I don't want let them worry about me.